Liyana Azizul

We once say we want a change. But we kept on making a turn back into the past.  Its not on purpose but we just somehow just do. Knowing that overthinking will give no benefit,the harder it is to stop. Its easy to say, but its never easy to be done. We seek for happiness, we seek for things that will make us smile. We want to move forward but something will just keep pulling us back. Which part of us is trap in the shadows? The heart? The soul? We are lost in our world. Questioning ourself each day when we have no reason to smile. Is this how its supposed to be? Or is it just us? Sincerely, Liyana :)

Her name is Zarina. A daughter to Samsudin&Molizan. Samsudin, my granpa is also known as Pak Din. He used to be a teacher yang lawak&best in the old days.Molizan, my grandma finished school at 12. Got married when she was 15 ,full-housewife and gave birth to my mummy, when she was 16. The granpa&granma story ... Grandpa pi sports day this one school and he fell in love with the woman on track which was my grandma.wuuuu.  :D  Dengan rezeki yang ada ,grandma dapat ikut grandma travel to uk and merata. although she dint continue her studies. (Org kata marry anak dato baru dapat jalan ? ) hmmmm haha My mom is the first child in her family and she has 2 brothers which are my Pakngah&Paksu.  If you look at my mom you might not say she's 50 but she is. My mom is turning 52 on this upcoming 1st November. She is small,cute and cuddlyyyy :D One of the things I love about her is that,  she is a person who will make everyone around her happy :) she...

Today I din't know what to write . So I asked my twin-sister ,my dear friend to give me a topic. and so she gave me one. Thank you kawan :) Here it goes.. Do you ever feel lonely ? The feeling of being alone and unwanted? I did. Frankly, alot back in the old days (macam la tua sangat kan). Although Im just 17 ,I felt it alot of times. I'm not proud. Well its not something to be proud of anyway. Its not because of my parents or anyone. Well, it's just me. The teenage phase they say. But now i realised that i used to put hope on people, promises and the things around me that will make me happy. I put expectations in Dunya . When you have such a 'happy life' with the fun of teen life , we tend to forget about something . Something that is so precious&important. We were just to busy living the teen life because all we want is freedom . We just want to be happy by going out and all those fun stuff. Come to a point , I realised that I have put Allah behin...

I had a few dreams last week . 1. I was in an apartment and suddenly gempa bumi kuaaat sangat smpai the whole building was shaking so so hard. I saw the road was cracking and keadaan jadi huru-hara. Everyone was running & screaming. I was holding my mom and crying because i was so scared. Nak kata macam kiamat tak berani nak cakap tapi rasanya lebih kurang macam gambaran kiamat . And then i woke up, it was 230am. 2. I was in a boat with my family. We were going somewhere , an island mybe. But suddenly ombak jadi tinggi&kuat. And it kept on hitting the boat. I looked at my parents and i say 'if anything happens, just know that im sorry and i love you both' . I was scared to say it bcause my parents always say 'dont say ridiculous things. Kata-kata tu doa, ' but at that time i just want to really say it. After that i woke up and it was 3am . I might say its only nightmares but somehow i reflect it as a message too (bukan ajaran sesat ye.anggapan sahaja) . Mybe im...

Its been awhile since the kitchen at my house smoked. My mom had been the best cook ive ever met . Im turning 18 in July ,so i asked myself, when am I going to learn how she cooks? If I continue my study far away from home, who's going to cook? Hmm thats going to be a big problem.  Lately, my mom is abit busy with her work on the weekdays . My dad will always buy outside food for dinner. And o ne unfortunate day, I got a fever. I was so weak the whole day. I cant even taste anything. All i feel like doing is lay on my bed and sleep. I slept for 6hours on the afternoon. I just cant get up. The only thing i ate was milo and cheesebread in the morning. And i couldnt swallow anything after that.  Thankfully on the next day i was healthy again Alhamdulillah but i couldnt eat outside food anymore. My throat just wont swallow. So I think its time for me to learn how to cook. Since that day i started cooking and exploring the kitchen . I never actually cook lauk like all moms do becau...