You.
All packed. I'm ready to move out to a new place tomorrow. 12 months of living in this house taught me so much about a lot of things. But now I just feel writing about one thing.
You.
It's been more than a year being away from you. It's been up and down going through days without you around. I still remember 4 years ago when I gave up with love , I taught myself that I don't need any guy by my side. Then, I met you. For months I didn't allow you to come through my safe zone. I kept that barrier between us because I had enough of fake love.
Fast forward 4 years now, I can't believe how much light you added to my dark world. Tomorrow I'm moving to a new place to find my peace and happiness within me. Living in this flat taught me so much of self-love because without you around, there is no one else to love me like you do. You made a better girl/ The girl who chased her dreams and got them in her hands. I missed you so much.
I miss talking to you in person and just having you next to me saying that everything is going to be fine. It has been difficult going through life for the past 1 year. I've tried to buckle up and suck it all in but it's hard, really hard.
I can't wait for the day to come insyaAllah. To be with you again. I don't think no one would really understand this. But you know how I would laugh my head off and I'll cry the next second because I missed you when we are on the phone. It hurts knowing that I can't do anything other than just move on with my life the next day.
I really look forward to days that I could wake up and make your favourite breakfast. And those days where we would walk/drive/travel together to work. And on weekends, going to the markets and adventures with you. There is so much I wish I could with you now but I know Allah made us wait for a reason.
There is so much uncertainty going on other than June. These uncertainties are giving me anxiety and that when people ask me how's my prep for the wedding, I don't really 'feel' it yet. Maybe because I'm far from home but it's actually more to that. We are now making our ways to work out our paths post-the wedding. Whatever the end resultis going to be, I'll be grateful insyaAllah with the best results as we are hoping.
I miss you. I really do. I don't know how I do it but I know I hide it so well that it's hard for people to understand what I'm going through.
I know this life is temporary and Allah is just borrowing you for me, and me for you. It makes me think of how much of what I want and what the journey is going to look like in near future.
Ya Allah, please ease this for both of us for whats best dunia & akhirat.
You.
It's been more than a year being away from you. It's been up and down going through days without you around. I still remember 4 years ago when I gave up with love , I taught myself that I don't need any guy by my side. Then, I met you. For months I didn't allow you to come through my safe zone. I kept that barrier between us because I had enough of fake love.
Fast forward 4 years now, I can't believe how much light you added to my dark world. Tomorrow I'm moving to a new place to find my peace and happiness within me. Living in this flat taught me so much of self-love because without you around, there is no one else to love me like you do. You made a better girl/ The girl who chased her dreams and got them in her hands. I missed you so much.
I miss talking to you in person and just having you next to me saying that everything is going to be fine. It has been difficult going through life for the past 1 year. I've tried to buckle up and suck it all in but it's hard, really hard.
I can't wait for the day to come insyaAllah. To be with you again. I don't think no one would really understand this. But you know how I would laugh my head off and I'll cry the next second because I missed you when we are on the phone. It hurts knowing that I can't do anything other than just move on with my life the next day.
I really look forward to days that I could wake up and make your favourite breakfast. And those days where we would walk/drive/travel together to work. And on weekends, going to the markets and adventures with you. There is so much I wish I could with you now but I know Allah made us wait for a reason.
There is so much uncertainty going on other than June. These uncertainties are giving me anxiety and that when people ask me how's my prep for the wedding, I don't really 'feel' it yet. Maybe because I'm far from home but it's actually more to that. We are now making our ways to work out our paths post-the wedding. Whatever the end resultis going to be, I'll be grateful insyaAllah with the best results as we are hoping.
I miss you. I really do. I don't know how I do it but I know I hide it so well that it's hard for people to understand what I'm going through.
I know this life is temporary and Allah is just borrowing you for me, and me for you. It makes me think of how much of what I want and what the journey is going to look like in near future.
Ya Allah, please ease this for both of us for whats best dunia & akhirat.
Jadi Bini abang je, sayang... Tak yah tengok tingkap. Cuma tatap suami tercinta 😁
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