Liyana Azizul

Tazkirah pagi petang malam. Cermah tv , masjid,surau. Tapi still tak bagi effect papa. Pernah anda terasa begitu? Kita sering diberi ilmu tetapi hati tetap kosong.  Kita tahu benda tu salah , kita buat jugak. Kita tau Allah swt Maha Mendenga r tapi kita buat jugak. Kita tau fakta akhirat akan terjadi tapi kita buat jugak. Kita tau benda tu berdosa tapi kita buat jugak. Pernah perasan tak ? We know , but we don't.   Apa sebenarnya motif kita dilahir ke dunia? Jadi khalifah di muka bumi?! Walaupun tu fakta yang kita tau ,kita terlupa bukan? Keindahan dunia mempengaruhi niat hati & tindakan kita. Setiap perilaku hanya tujuan untuk kemewahan & keindahan yang realitinya tidak kekal. Tangisan hati yang terseksa dibiar dibuai dengan kenikmatan dunia. Sampai bila ya ni semua?  Oleh, Liyana 

A week before SPM , I wrote a letter to my parents. It's a confession letter in other words. Hati tak tenang selagi tak confess what I've hidden from them sebab rasa tak berkat nak buat exam. Frankly lepas dah bagi surat tu ,rasa macam satu beban yang disimpan selama ni WOSHHH terus hilang. Rasa ringan otak,hati semua lah.Bukan saja nak buat sweet but I'm naturally like this muahaha ^.^ Anyway, lets story abit about what I wrote. Most of the things I wrote is the rebellious side of me . I might look innocent&obedient and I know my parents know about it (mark that :parents knows everything in the end.) . But I just feel like confessing. So one of the things I confessed is I used to skip class when I was in Form 2 . weee :D I skipped english class alot . Im sorry Mr.Taufik. I know you knew but you pretend I dint hehe. When I skipped, I dint go out from school. I just go and stay in an empty class and eat, borak and just lets say, lepak hohoho. Dont do it ...

Surah Al-Waqiah is one of my favourite surah. Dulu masa kat Taiping ada kawan bagitau kalau baca everyday insyaAllah dimurahkan rezeki. So I start to read& do some deeper research on the surah.  Its fun to get to know the meaning behind the arabic verse. Usually in the morning I will just turn on and listen to surah recited by Mishary Al Afasy because I like his way/taranum of reciting. And kalau ada translation, boleh dijadikan tazkirah pagi untuk diri sendiri.insyaAllah  If you just take 13minutes of your time and press the link below, insyaAllah you will get something precious today :) dont just listen but understand too! Surah Al-Waqiah fully recited by Mishary Al Afasy http://youtu.be/TUj6lTXGIVM Kita kadang-kadang terlalu lalai dengan dunia kita terlepas pandang benda-benda macam ni.  Mungkin di saat kita hidup senang kita tak sedar realiti hikmah di sebalik semua benda yang ada di sekeliling kita kan? Sibuk nak have fun sampai terlupa na...

In a few days, january is coming to an end. Isnt it fast? I finished school and suddenly the result is coming out in less than 2 months. Ive not entered any program yet as planned but its okay, im fine :) im enjoying my holiday anyway. Knowing some of my friends are now doing foundations and all, really made me happy because they got to do what they want to do ;)  Especially those yang masa mohon, "alah aku nak tapi aku xlayak." Tengok2 dia dapat. Wahh dapat tau dia dapat aku yang melompat depan laptop seronok. ^.^ Tapi apa aku mampu? Message kat fb ja lah mampu. Nak celebrate berbatu jauhnya.  Anyways, so im planning to do finance/engineering and later do my MBA. For now waiting for interviews are like waiting for a shooting star to shoot right away. We tend to have the urge to get things done as soon as possible I guess? I n 6months+ im turning 18. Feeling old yet?(abit) But i just start to feel like its time for some commitments. I mean , to my family and to the nation. Ac...

Since I was a kid i always hear people saying kawan karib, kawan baik, kawan sejati, kawan tu,kawan ni. Well, True Friend lah katanya. Di saat pahit gentir kehidupan, kita perlukan kawan. Seseorang yang akan dengar segala leteran, luahan yang dioutputkan. Sesetengah orang buat tak endah. Ada pula yang menikam di belakang.  Realitinya dunia ini bukan kita yang punya. Hati orang juga bukan kita yang punya.  Tetapi, dalam kata apa pun,seseorang yang tidak pernah menyerah kalah dalam persahabatan adalah sebaik-baik sahabat. Yang menerima kelemahan kita ,yang mungkin kontra dengannya.  Seorang sahabat adalah diibaratkan satu rahmat daripada Tuhan.  Kita hidup sebagai perantau . Kita merantau mencari bekalan & redha-Nya. Sebaik-baik sahabat jualah yang akan membawa kita ke arah itu. Mengkonkulisikan seseorang itu jahat bukanlah caranya. Setiap orang ada jawapan kepada persoalannya. Tetapi terpulang kepada tuan punya badan hendak usaha mencarinya. Sahabat, di sinilah en...

We once say we want a change. But we kept on making a turn back into the past.  Its not on purpose but we just somehow just do. Knowing that overthinking will give no benefit,the harder it is to stop. Its easy to say, but its never easy to be done. We seek for happiness, we seek for things that will make us smile. We want to move forward but something will just keep pulling us back. Which part of us is trap in the shadows? The heart? The soul? We are lost in our world. Questioning ourself each day when we have no reason to smile. Is this how its supposed to be? Or is it just us? Sincerely, Liyana :)

Her name is Zarina. A daughter to Samsudin&Molizan. Samsudin, my granpa is also known as Pak Din. He used to be a teacher yang lawak&best in the old days.Molizan, my grandma finished school at 12. Got married when she was 15 ,full-housewife and gave birth to my mummy, when she was 16. The granpa&granma story ... Grandpa pi sports day this one school and he fell in love with the woman on track which was my grandma.wuuuu.  :D  Dengan rezeki yang ada ,grandma dapat ikut grandma travel to uk and merata. although she dint continue her studies. (Org kata marry anak dato baru dapat jalan ? ) hmmmm haha My mom is the first child in her family and she has 2 brothers which are my Pakngah&Paksu.  If you look at my mom you might not say she's 50 but she is. My mom is turning 52 on this upcoming 1st November. She is small,cute and cuddlyyyy :D One of the things I love about her is that,  she is a person who will make everyone around her happy :) she...

Today I din't know what to write . So I asked my twin-sister ,my dear friend to give me a topic. and so she gave me one. Thank you kawan :) Here it goes.. Do you ever feel lonely ? The feeling of being alone and unwanted? I did. Frankly, alot back in the old days (macam la tua sangat kan). Although Im just 17 ,I felt it alot of times. I'm not proud. Well its not something to be proud of anyway. Its not because of my parents or anyone. Well, it's just me. The teenage phase they say. But now i realised that i used to put hope on people, promises and the things around me that will make me happy. I put expectations in Dunya . When you have such a 'happy life' with the fun of teen life , we tend to forget about something . Something that is so precious&important. We were just to busy living the teen life because all we want is freedom . We just want to be happy by going out and all those fun stuff. Come to a point , I realised that I have put Allah behin...

I had a few dreams last week . 1. I was in an apartment and suddenly gempa bumi kuaaat sangat smpai the whole building was shaking so so hard. I saw the road was cracking and keadaan jadi huru-hara. Everyone was running & screaming. I was holding my mom and crying because i was so scared. Nak kata macam kiamat tak berani nak cakap tapi rasanya lebih kurang macam gambaran kiamat . And then i woke up, it was 230am. 2. I was in a boat with my family. We were going somewhere , an island mybe. But suddenly ombak jadi tinggi&kuat. And it kept on hitting the boat. I looked at my parents and i say 'if anything happens, just know that im sorry and i love you both' . I was scared to say it bcause my parents always say 'dont say ridiculous things. Kata-kata tu doa, ' but at that time i just want to really say it. After that i woke up and it was 3am . I might say its only nightmares but somehow i reflect it as a message too (bukan ajaran sesat ye.anggapan sahaja) . Mybe im...

Its been awhile since the kitchen at my house smoked. My mom had been the best cook ive ever met . Im turning 18 in July ,so i asked myself, when am I going to learn how she cooks? If I continue my study far away from home, who's going to cook? Hmm thats going to be a big problem.  Lately, my mom is abit busy with her work on the weekdays . My dad will always buy outside food for dinner. And o ne unfortunate day, I got a fever. I was so weak the whole day. I cant even taste anything. All i feel like doing is lay on my bed and sleep. I slept for 6hours on the afternoon. I just cant get up. The only thing i ate was milo and cheesebread in the morning. And i couldnt swallow anything after that.  Thankfully on the next day i was healthy again Alhamdulillah but i couldnt eat outside food anymore. My throat just wont swallow. So I think its time for me to learn how to cook. Since that day i started cooking and exploring the kitchen . I never actually cook lauk like all moms do becau...

All I want to do is just to travel the whole world. Getting out from this tiny hometown and explore the unknowns. Do you know that feeling? Its something like a freedome but its only within ourself and the nature. The beauty that had been created looong looong time ago somehow create a bond between me and the nature. Just look at the sky and imagine who are you in the next 10 years . A doctor? An engineer? A traveller? Or just a beggar on the roadside? We cant stop time . Time will just fly away . We get old. But time will just keep on going and going leaving us behind.  My mom &dad always taught me since i was a kid,  'if you want to travel and go disneyland . Study with all your heart and go on your own. '   Im thankful m y parents taught me this way because then I learn to work hard to get and do what I want . Its not easy but it a healthy challenge for myself.  Create no boundaries between you & your goals . Step forward even if you fall. Some people beli...

Smile itu senyum, Senyum itu sedekah, Sedekah itu amal jariah, Tapi kenapa macam susah? Everyday we see strangers along the street, outside of our house, at the shops . Oh well practicaly, almost everywhere. As we know, our beloved Rasulullah loves to smile. Everywhere Rasulullah goes people will always see him with a smile on his face.  Kalau kita tengok masyarakat harini, ada banyak kes senyum... 1. Kita senyum ,dia tengok pelik 2. Kita senyum, dia buat tak nampak 3. Kita senyum , dia senyum balik 4. Kita tak senyum, dia senyum 5. Kita senyum, dia emmmmm 'sengih' Dan baaaaanyak lagi . The variations of humans' personalities are one of the most intresting issues in life . Seronok kalau kita kaji(kaji ya bukan judge) orang dari certain situasi. Dari situ jugak kita dapat lihat keindahan ciptaan Allah yang berbagai-bagai.  Kadang-kadang diriku ini sering tergeli hati sendiri melihat sesetngah gelagat orang. Gelagat diri sendiri jangan ditanya , memang sering digelakkan pun (...

"Ala kita ni sapa nk buat tu smua" "Kita xsepandai dia " "Aku sedar aku ni sapa" "Hg kena sedar diri" "Dia lagi bgus dari aku"  Trduududu.... all those sorts of kata-kata yg bermain di minda Tanpa kita sedari, kita senang sangat jatuh bila kita dilemparkan kata-kata mcm tu. Tpi ironinya, yg tukang melempar tu pun kadang-kadang diri sendiri. Kita sering jadikan apa yg org kata/komen sbgai penunjuk ajar. Ada kalanya betul dan ada kalanya salah. Kenapa kita biarkan diri kita dinilai orang? Bukan salah . Tetapi sekarang ,ramai orang senang jatuh apabila dinilai orang. Mungkin cara dia kurang menyedapkan hati. Apatah lgi kalau dia seorang yang orang sanjungi. Hakikatnya, kita semua manusia. Kita semua hamba Allah. Sebaik-baik hakim adalah Pencipta kita sendiri. Apa yang orang komen buruk jadikan teladan bukan dijadikan racun di dalam diri. Ini adalah sebahagian yang orang panggil dugaan. Kalau sekali kita jatuh bukan maknanya k...

As we can see, nowadays people are putting hope on people, gadgets, wealthy and all those things. we believe those things can bring happiness to our lives. The more we are attached&craving for it, the more we felt empty inside of us. The emptyness is not in the stomach neither the brain but it's in the heart. We never felt like everything is perfect. Without realizing , we are actually threatened by the Duny itselfa. Its a silent killer to our heart. Its true this is a new era, the era of sciences&technos. But remember, how did it all begin? The more we let go&distance ourselves from the rope of Allah, the more we fall into the ocean of Dunya and eventually we will drown. Once we are drown ,we'll face a harder time to get closer to Him. We complain, we nag, we blame and we cry. The trials we went through seems like a nightmare instead of a message from Him.  Just ask ourselves, how long do we want to live in this feeling of emptyness?  Sincerely, Liyana :) 

When i was in standard 6, i got 4As for my UPSR. I cried my eyes out on the result day . I almost gave up in my academics. Well the story is , I was in the first class and we have 41 members. And in that class everyone got straight As except for 3 people including me. Can you imagine how tiny i felt that time? I felt like i want to dig hole and just hide in there . Hahaha lol me. Anyway, i finally realized 4As is a huge number which i forget how thankful i was that time .mybe because me myself wasnt that islamic like you're expecting. Im just a typical kid you know that who likes to blame everything that happens to her back then. My mom tried to calm me with her words. She said 'this is nothing and this ia only the first hurdle, you have so much more in life. Theres no time for you to give up now .' At first it dint hit me until i started my high school. I got into hm not-so-good school . Every morning i was never excited to go to school. i just go for the sake of going to...

Its been a long time since I thought about doing a blog but i never had the guts to do so. I love writing (typing)  in my phone . But I wasnt ready to tell the world. Well,Since i have a quite long holiday to come, im making this blog just to try and see how far can i go. So along this blog you'll see a few stories, some motivations (mybe) and experiences that i went through that i would love to share . Thank you for stopping by Sincerely, Liyana :)