A letter to Mak Abah

A week before SPM , I wrote a letter to my parents. It's a confession letter in other words.

Hati tak tenang selagi tak confess what I've hidden from them sebab rasa tak berkat nak buat exam.

Frankly lepas dah bagi surat tu ,rasa macam satu beban yang disimpan selama ni WOSHHH terus hilang. Rasa ringan otak,hati semua lah.Bukan saja nak buat sweet but I'm naturally like this muahaha ^.^

Anyway, lets story abit about what I wrote. Most of the things I wrote is the rebellious side of me . I might look innocent&obedient and I know my parents know about it (mark that :parents knows everything in the end.). But I just feel like confessing.

So one of the things I confessed is I used to skip class when I was in Form 2 . weee :D I skipped english class alot . Im sorry Mr.Taufik. I know you knew but you pretend I dint hehe. When I skipped, I dint go out from school. I just go and stay in an empty class and eat, borak and just lets say, lepak hohoho. Dont do it eh adik-adik. takut tak berkat .I guess thats why my result maximum paling tinggi boleh dapat 3A masa tu.

Moving on, I also went to malls after school without telling my parents  . whoppps! I've appologized for that. My parents dint allow me to go out  untill I'm 16 . and I'm very thankful that they taught me to do so because I finally see that going out when you don't have a good reason leads to cons instead of pros .

Naluri nak have fun eh ? Hmmm 

I also did appologized for all the wrongs that I did which is I know ALOT. Kita sebagai anak mesti sedikit-sebanyak (banyaklah bagiku) tersakitkan hati mereka. Growing up in this era banyak pengaruh yang erm, tak berapa elok lah katakan. I know I troubled them for my activities during weekdays even on weekends. Although they are busy with their work they still support me because I was doing something I have passion on. But in the end, I realised the effort they have put on me was so big .

We kids, we tend to 'nak ni ,nak tu' and expect our parents to give kan kan kan?

We never thought of the effects to them. Tapi disebabkan sayang ,marah tetap marah tapi  demi anak.

I also confessed that I have a phone when I was form 2 which was against the family rule because we're not allowed to have a phone until we finished PMR. but hmm I did go against it hehe. My dad caught me with the illegal phone quite a few times but Abah just bagi warning and tegur.

Banyakkan mak bapak kita sabar ? selama ni kita ja tak perasan. 

This post is not to show off how proud I'am doing all those things but something that I reflect as a HUGE lesson in my life. 

Being rebellious can be fun but we have to know the effects lah jugak. I was very-super playful back then . To the point masa sekolah rendah smpai ke sggs tak pernah dicalon jadi pengawas ( heee :D ) When I entered Taiping and became a LDP ,I told my teachers back in my old school and they laughed (you get my point ?) hahahah 

Just to be frank , after I entered Taiping I start to realise all this stuff  Alhamdulillah . 

Im just so thankful that my parents supported me all the way until now despite the troublesome I caused them, the heartache and all. They never gave up me. My parents can be strict when they have to and I appreciate it. 

Bila kita kena marah kita sakit hati, marah balik, menjawab balik dan bagai kan?
We never realised how HUGE is their effort that they have put on us since the day we're born. 

So, just take a break an reflect ourselves as a child . InsyaAllah we will understand our parents more.

Sincerely ,
 Liyana :)