Regrets.

Good morning people! I want to share a thing or two about regrets. 

(do watch the video at the end of my post! it's worth it)

So.....I had my first ever biggest regret during my primary school. I may be too young at that time but I learnt a huge lesson in life which is 'Do not hold back'. I have tried to impress everyone in everything I do at that time because I thought those words I get from people are my main strength. But then I realised, I was wrong. 

I figured that all I have is myself. I have the power to make choices to do and not to do.

So yeah, that time I didn't really go for my dreams because I didn't have any.

My mission back then was for popularity, which was my biggest mistake. When I didn't manage to get straight A's for my national primary school exam, everything turned upside. I cried for weeks. I regretted the whole time and I hated myself for not having a dream. 

But then I'm glad I went through all that because I realised that I have to start chasing my own dreams. And that's when everything started.

That is when I had a dream to be a part of an  orchestra, to play a solo in overseas and to achieve something. That is when I had a dream to get into a top school in my country and that is when I dreamt to continue my study overseas. 

Although at first, I was haunted by my past for 3-4 years. I was traumatised and paranoid with friendships. I could hardly trust anyone. I lose the interest to find a friend because I was backstabbed so bad and everyone left me when I was at the lowest point of my life. 

BUT my family was there, the whole time. And that is also when I realised how important family is to me. 

Throughout the journey of finding myself, I worked hard. I never regretted anything ever since. For all the wrong people who came into my life, thank you because you taught me a lesson. For all the people who made my life easier in so many ways, thank you for being there for me. (also thank you for all the kind prayers from everyone out there, may Allah bless).

I start to make sense out of the right and wrong things I do. I start to know myself better. And when I start to know my strengths and weaknesses better, I could hardly give up. Because I'll keep telling myself to get up and keep moving forward. One of my friends once said to me "hard times are not here to stay" and that's the reason I don't mourn on my failures for too long.

Now, everything is totally a new story. When I looked back, I'm so proud of myself and I don't need anyone to tell me that. I love myself so much that every time I fall, I know how to get up. What people say may hurt and I may cry (most of the time lol) but I never stop. I didn't let anyone or anything stop me from reaching my dreams.

I get a lot of question like "How do you this and that", "how do you not get scared etc". 

And when I give them a couple of advice and tell them how I do things they will be like "I'm scared" ,"I'm not good enough", "I'm not you".

And you know what, the fear you have, I had them too. I had the fear for friendship, love and a lot of things that you don't know. But one thing I do is I challenged my fear. Trust me, you may think it's easy for me but the truth is, it's not. Getting over your fear is probably one of the biggest challenges in life. But remember, the future depends on you. It's whether you want to challenge them or not. If you don't challenge them, then you'll stay as you are right now. Try to challenge once, and you will start to realise a change in you. 

Take note, the challenges you take will eventually alter your path in your life because the more you challenge the fear that you have in you, the more the door of opportunities will be opened for you. (trust me, this is so true!!!!)

Most people think that I had an easy life. They don't know the energy,time and hassle that I went through to be where I'm now(ask my mum for evidence lol). I pressured myself a lot but because I have faith in myself, I know what I do is worth it. Well basically,  I love myself and I want to get the best out of all the time that I have. 

Hence, I guess the first question you would ask yourself is, do you really love yourself?

Do you really know yourself well or do you need others to tell you, about you?

Bye guys, be kind.

Regards,

Liyana.

(remember to make use of what the message are bcs if not, you're just wasting your precious time)