One fine man.
Something that I need to tell the world about you.
Hi guys, so today I have a (quite long) story. It's about my late granpa, Samsudin Hamzah. A man with a pure and amazing heart.
Here it goes...
When I was only 2 weeks old, my mom sent me to my granpa's for awhile to babysit me as my mom had some work to do. Obviously I don't remember those days haha. But basically that's how/why my bond w him and granma is very close.
There're so many things about him that the world around him is missing him. He was loud, cheerful, full w jokes and etc. He just know how to crack up everyone during family gatherings and everywhere.
I had so many memories w him. I still remember the first day I ate ikan belah belakang sumbat sambal. There's this one day I went into his kitchen and I saw him feasting himself w a plate that has big fish that smells so good. So I asked him, "granpa tgh makan apa"(what are you eating?" And he said "ikan dgn sambal. Meh makan dgn granpa".(fish sambal, come join me)z I was like 10 or 11 I can't remember. I joined him but then I said "tapi byk tulang xnak la makan"(so many bones I don't want to eat). He replied "takdelah, biaq granpa bgi Isi ja dkt hg, hg makan"(not really, I'll separate them for you. You just eat). Basically that shows some parts of him that I really miss. One fact, he's a guy who loves to eat. Name it, KFC, Mee goreng mamak to lobster. Haha from not fancy to fancy food.
Next, he is also a one wise man. He was a teacher, an amazing teacher. his students loves him and still visit him up until his old days. That shows how much impact he gives to people's lives. Perhaps that's how I had that in my soul somehow(cey agkt bakul).
He has a very kind heart but he's tough when he needs to be and that's something I love about him. He taught me a lot about being nice but don't let others eat you. Amazing ey this guy? I miss him. I really do.
As I grew up, I shared a lot of stories with him. Some are even the things that I don't tell my parents lol. When it comes to love life, he knows it all. I never hid anything from him bcs he'll ask me "ada Boyfriend dak?" And I can never lie to him lol so yeah. When it comes to friends, to the ones who've stayed over my house, I would take them to his house bcs I want him to know them :) and I want you guys to know the amazing man that I have in my life despite the people who left me. Thank you past, you made me a tougher girl.
When I was 12, he asked me "bila nak kahwin?"(when are you going to get married?) and i said "10 tahu lagi kot?"(10years maybe?), Then he said, "okay then, kita start countdown"(okay, we countdown from now on). And you know what? We really did. Every Raya he'll ask me "how many years left?" And we keep track of the countdown!!
~ skipping some parts of the moments and I'm going into the days I had w him before I flew off to NZ.
Before I went to NZ, I was actually supposed to go to Japan w my family for holiday but I didn't make it bcs of stuff (panjang cerita). My parents ended up burning all the tickets for me for the trip. During the whole week my family were in Japan, I stayover-ed at granpa's. which i believe now it's my last time staying over while he's still there.
During that whole week, granpa&granma wanted to go to so many places while I was there as I can drive them.
Firstly, granpa really wanted to visit MRSM Taiping during my high school days but he couldn't make it. Hence, I took him to Taiping that week. Then, he wanted to go to pasar abit further from the house and a famous roti canai shop near there that tebar roti canai 'on air' literally luls. We also went to a restaurant that he likes and a Nasi Kandar shop which opens 10pm at night. ( yes, my granpa eats Nasi kandar for late night snack haha. )
I did it. I brought him and granma to all the places they wanted to go. I'm so thankful and grateful to have the chance to do so for them. And now I know that everything we did was the last time. Sad ey? Don't be I'm happy I did that all :) not forgetting when we want to all the shops , he will make an announcement "hi everyone this is my beautiful cucu who's going to NZ soon". -so now the world knows me ahahahaha
Before I went to NZ, I bought an iPhone bcs I want to FaceTime w a good quality with them while I'm away. I also did called their home phone randomly and they'll be "Tak mahal ka/boleh ckp lama ka etc"(isn't it expensive? How long can we talk?) bcs they were worried if I were wasting my money calling home. I bought an international package so it was cheap! Yay. Usually when I call their house phone, granpa will answer my call by saying "ya cucu, hang nak apa?"(yes granddaughter, what do you want?" And I'll be "ya atok saya, saja rindu talipon"(nothing just missing you). We will just laugh the conversation away :) btw we don't usually talk like that lol it's just for fun.
Whenever I FaceTime w then w my mom's phone, he will always say "gemuk dh hang, lawa cucu Aku"(you're fat now and beautiful). Hahaahah Gosh I miss those words from him. He loves me and I know.
~Fast forward to the his last days
When he was sick, my family kept it a secret from me bcs I was going to have my finals and my mom knows I'm an overthinker. So she made the right decision to kept the news away. I'm telling you, I'm thankful she did that bcs I couldn't imagine if I knew he was sick that time.
After I was told he passed away, I realised that I've found the answer because before that, I felt something.
I felt like someone is going leave me but I don't know who. Besides my boyfriend who's studying w me in the same uni, I don't really hang out w anyone else most of the time so I really thought he was going to leave me. (Perhaps maybe I was having my PMS lol) so I kept apologising to him for all of my moodswings. But anyway, I sincerely felt like someone that matters to me is going to leave me but idk who. Maybe Allah is sending these senses to prepare me for the news I guess? Thank you Allah. When my mom told me he passed away I cried hard bcs I didn't really see it coming(yet maybe). It was strange to think I'm going home and he's not there anymore. Now I know.
~forward to the past again!
Few months before that, he kept on asking me to come home bcs initially I didn't plan to come home. I wanted to work during summer in NZ. But after all the brainwash about the importance of internship etc, I made the decision to come home. Ever since he knew I was coming back home. He will always countdown whenever I FaceTime w him like "hang balik 2 bulan lagi Kan?"(you're coming home in 2 months right?). Every.single.time. He also kept on asking my mum when I'm coming. Which became once of the reasons why I really looked forward to meet him.
I guess I have this 'countdown' thing with him lol. The last time I FaceTime him was 10 days before he passed away. I can see the difference as he looks tired but I thought it was normal. When he asked when I'm coming home and I said in just another 2 Fridays, he straight away passed the phone to my lil bro saying he doesn't want to talk anymore. Weird eh? Yeah, quite weird but it's okay. Perhaps he felt it I guess?
At the end, he passed away just 5 days before I came home.
*writing all this w tears in my eyes*
Only Allah knows how much I miss him. And I know, he's in better hands now. Tangan Allah kot, that's like the safest hands you could ever asked for.
I know my mom is still healing and I think she's doing great so far. She's like the strongest women I know. She just keep herself going.
But it's okay, I know he's waiting for all of us on the other side with his cheeky smile.
So guys, cherish the people in your lives before it's too late. Embrace all the moments and put your phone aside once in awhile.
Live in the moment.
Please send my granpa Al-Fatihah too before you close my page! ;)
May Allah bless you, dear readers.
Truly,
Liyana Azizul
Hi guys, so today I have a (quite long) story. It's about my late granpa, Samsudin Hamzah. A man with a pure and amazing heart.
Here it goes...
When I was only 2 weeks old, my mom sent me to my granpa's for awhile to babysit me as my mom had some work to do. Obviously I don't remember those days haha. But basically that's how/why my bond w him and granma is very close.
There're so many things about him that the world around him is missing him. He was loud, cheerful, full w jokes and etc. He just know how to crack up everyone during family gatherings and everywhere.
I had so many memories w him. I still remember the first day I ate ikan belah belakang sumbat sambal. There's this one day I went into his kitchen and I saw him feasting himself w a plate that has big fish that smells so good. So I asked him, "granpa tgh makan apa"(what are you eating?" And he said "ikan dgn sambal. Meh makan dgn granpa".(fish sambal, come join me)z I was like 10 or 11 I can't remember. I joined him but then I said "tapi byk tulang xnak la makan"(so many bones I don't want to eat). He replied "takdelah, biaq granpa bgi Isi ja dkt hg, hg makan"(not really, I'll separate them for you. You just eat). Basically that shows some parts of him that I really miss. One fact, he's a guy who loves to eat. Name it, KFC, Mee goreng mamak to lobster. Haha from not fancy to fancy food.
Next, he is also a one wise man. He was a teacher, an amazing teacher. his students loves him and still visit him up until his old days. That shows how much impact he gives to people's lives. Perhaps that's how I had that in my soul somehow(cey agkt bakul).
He has a very kind heart but he's tough when he needs to be and that's something I love about him. He taught me a lot about being nice but don't let others eat you. Amazing ey this guy? I miss him. I really do.
As I grew up, I shared a lot of stories with him. Some are even the things that I don't tell my parents lol. When it comes to love life, he knows it all. I never hid anything from him bcs he'll ask me "ada Boyfriend dak?" And I can never lie to him lol so yeah. When it comes to friends, to the ones who've stayed over my house, I would take them to his house bcs I want him to know them :) and I want you guys to know the amazing man that I have in my life despite the people who left me. Thank you past, you made me a tougher girl.
When I was 12, he asked me "bila nak kahwin?"(when are you going to get married?) and i said "10 tahu lagi kot?"(10years maybe?), Then he said, "okay then, kita start countdown"(okay, we countdown from now on). And you know what? We really did. Every Raya he'll ask me "how many years left?" And we keep track of the countdown!!
~ skipping some parts of the moments and I'm going into the days I had w him before I flew off to NZ.
Before I went to NZ, I was actually supposed to go to Japan w my family for holiday but I didn't make it bcs of stuff (panjang cerita). My parents ended up burning all the tickets for me for the trip. During the whole week my family were in Japan, I stayover-ed at granpa's. which i believe now it's my last time staying over while he's still there.
During that whole week, granpa&granma wanted to go to so many places while I was there as I can drive them.
Firstly, granpa really wanted to visit MRSM Taiping during my high school days but he couldn't make it. Hence, I took him to Taiping that week. Then, he wanted to go to pasar abit further from the house and a famous roti canai shop near there that tebar roti canai 'on air' literally luls. We also went to a restaurant that he likes and a Nasi Kandar shop which opens 10pm at night. ( yes, my granpa eats Nasi kandar for late night snack haha. )
I did it. I brought him and granma to all the places they wanted to go. I'm so thankful and grateful to have the chance to do so for them. And now I know that everything we did was the last time. Sad ey? Don't be I'm happy I did that all :) not forgetting when we want to all the shops , he will make an announcement "hi everyone this is my beautiful cucu who's going to NZ soon". -so now the world knows me ahahahaha
Before I went to NZ, I bought an iPhone bcs I want to FaceTime w a good quality with them while I'm away. I also did called their home phone randomly and they'll be "Tak mahal ka/boleh ckp lama ka etc"(isn't it expensive? How long can we talk?) bcs they were worried if I were wasting my money calling home. I bought an international package so it was cheap! Yay. Usually when I call their house phone, granpa will answer my call by saying "ya cucu, hang nak apa?"(yes granddaughter, what do you want?" And I'll be "ya atok saya, saja rindu talipon"(nothing just missing you). We will just laugh the conversation away :) btw we don't usually talk like that lol it's just for fun.
Whenever I FaceTime w then w my mom's phone, he will always say "gemuk dh hang, lawa cucu Aku"(you're fat now and beautiful). Hahaahah Gosh I miss those words from him. He loves me and I know.
~Fast forward to the his last days
When he was sick, my family kept it a secret from me bcs I was going to have my finals and my mom knows I'm an overthinker. So she made the right decision to kept the news away. I'm telling you, I'm thankful she did that bcs I couldn't imagine if I knew he was sick that time.
After I was told he passed away, I realised that I've found the answer because before that, I felt something.
I felt like someone is going leave me but I don't know who. Besides my boyfriend who's studying w me in the same uni, I don't really hang out w anyone else most of the time so I really thought he was going to leave me. (Perhaps maybe I was having my PMS lol) so I kept apologising to him for all of my moodswings. But anyway, I sincerely felt like someone that matters to me is going to leave me but idk who. Maybe Allah is sending these senses to prepare me for the news I guess? Thank you Allah. When my mom told me he passed away I cried hard bcs I didn't really see it coming(yet maybe). It was strange to think I'm going home and he's not there anymore. Now I know.
~forward to the past again!
Few months before that, he kept on asking me to come home bcs initially I didn't plan to come home. I wanted to work during summer in NZ. But after all the brainwash about the importance of internship etc, I made the decision to come home. Ever since he knew I was coming back home. He will always countdown whenever I FaceTime w him like "hang balik 2 bulan lagi Kan?"(you're coming home in 2 months right?). Every.single.time. He also kept on asking my mum when I'm coming. Which became once of the reasons why I really looked forward to meet him.
I guess I have this 'countdown' thing with him lol. The last time I FaceTime him was 10 days before he passed away. I can see the difference as he looks tired but I thought it was normal. When he asked when I'm coming home and I said in just another 2 Fridays, he straight away passed the phone to my lil bro saying he doesn't want to talk anymore. Weird eh? Yeah, quite weird but it's okay. Perhaps he felt it I guess?
At the end, he passed away just 5 days before I came home.
*writing all this w tears in my eyes*
Only Allah knows how much I miss him. And I know, he's in better hands now. Tangan Allah kot, that's like the safest hands you could ever asked for.
I know my mom is still healing and I think she's doing great so far. She's like the strongest women I know. She just keep herself going.
But it's okay, I know he's waiting for all of us on the other side with his cheeky smile.
So guys, cherish the people in your lives before it's too late. Embrace all the moments and put your phone aside once in awhile.
Live in the moment.
Please send my granpa Al-Fatihah too before you close my page! ;)
May Allah bless you, dear readers.
Truly,
Liyana Azizul
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