Liyana Azizul

Hi guyssss As promised, here's a write up on my financial insights as per my poll a few days ago. Frankly, I was quite surprised by how many people actually participated in that poll! weee (I just had to do it because I couldn't decide and had no inspiration on what to write). Okay let's get started. Growing up, my parents taught me that if I want something/to go somewhere, I need to work my butt off to earn it. in highschool, I ceased all the opportunity to travel by being in the band and sign up for exchange programs (it was worth it!). Gosh I miss those days (to whoever budak band yg tengah baca, serious rindu those crazy days dengan korang!!!! ) . Surprisingly, I actually went to a few countries by being a performer hewhew . Hong Kong was definitely the highlight my band life! OK that's PART of my big point . going back to my younger days - when I was 12, I actually made big plans with my dad and I told my late grandfather about it. I told them that by the...

Distance has taught me so much of what love means. I can't lie that when you first start being on a long distance relationship after years being next to each other, there were doubts like ALOT of them. Especially when some people around you are justifying how it's so hard to work out From experience, NONE of my LDR worked out because no one was on the same page. That contributed to having doubts that it aint going to be any different this time.  But I fought through all these and last weekend, I've come to a point that I actually get it. I get how much this relationship is going to be different. First of all, both me and my man love each other so much that we can't explain how ridiculous it can be. It's weird how much you can care for someone so much despite the distance. For example, for the past at least 1 month and a half, I'd wake up in the middle of the night 3-4am just to check if he is home safe. I know how tired he is - the life of an auditor. Going h...

Let me take you today for a swim in my life at work. From the very first day, I’m really excited for the ‘hot-desk’ office policy where NO ONE in the office has their own personal office that includes people in the admins, juniors up until the partners themselves! Can you imagine that? If this is still a bit confusing to you, this policy basically means everyone doesn’t have their own office! There are a lot of desks with computers with/without standing tables, discussion area, meeting areas and soundproof rooms and etc where everyone could randomly sit every day. It’s an open environment where there are no walls in the whole office that separates ANYONE or any department. Isn’t that amazing? I think Auckland office has the same thing as well but the Christchurch office is very small. So everyone in the office meets everyone every day. In the beginning, I was really uncomfortable and scared, to be honest. Because you know, even if I’m shy, I still have to work in the open ...

After a month on my own - tomorrow im meeting my family again!!! and I'll meet my man as well soon enough <3 Also, I'm loving how I'm keeping myself really private these days. That I don't feel the need to post anything on social media. It's so much healthier and I'm happier than the person I was. Will post something later next week :D SO much exciting things happening next week - Graduation and road trips with famz! Okay bye! Be kind<3 Regards, Liyana

2 months flew by and part of me still can’t believe I’m surviving this LDR. In the beginning, it was really hard as it was really lonely. I constantly cried the first few days when I’m in my room. The real feeling actually kicked in when I got home from the airport on  9 March  last month. That moment, when I dropped my stuff, I felt it. IM ON MY OWN. For 2 years, I wasn’t technically alone – I was only away from families but I have friends and Azraei around so it wasn’t that bad being abroad. But that day, I felt it so deep. I could feel my heart shattered into pieces knowing that I sort of having to start living on my OWN in a foreign country that I love. I’m thankful that I really love New Zealand, the people and just where I am but adjusting to the new life is my new challenge. OK enough crapping liyana - now let’s talk about how’s the LDR life….. The first few days, I can’t really help but to cry at the smallest things. one, when I was about to cook for the ...

The time has come and I'm in the mood to write about all this jazz. If you've been following my life on Instagram, you'd know that I just graduated and recently just started working. Since the final semester last year, I could say that I've gone through one of the most challenging phases of my life - securing a job & deciding what to do next . Ever since I came to NZ for my Bachelor at the University of Canterbury, I've invested so much energy and time for my next phase of life. I once worked 3 jobs in 1 semester because I wanted to gain new experiences to build my character, English and etc because I know, my grades weren't enough. Truth be told, I didn't strive so much like I did in MRSM ever since I entered uni. ( Pls note: This is not an encouragement ). I felt pretty tired and I didn't have that motivation anymore. But I managed to maintain slightly-above-average grades bcs you know, I didn't want to screw up all of it. Anyway, in NZ, I...

Ok today let's talk about CATS. Growing up, I've always loved cats and any animals with fur. I HATE snakes and worms. But I'm one of those girls who'd come to save the day and kill cockroaches/bees if you need me to (ask azraei. he knows more about this lol. He'd usually run and ask me to kill them for him - gentleman much? haha). Anyway, my dad on the other hand, HATES animal with furs because he gets annoyed with fur hairs sticking on his clothes and their smelly poops. Growing up, I never officially adopted any cats - excluding stray cats that I've been feeding quietly at the back of my house hewhew.  Abah(dad) have set that if we ever want to have our own cats, do it in our own house - not his. haha fair enough. Now, I'm flatting out on my own with a Belgian girl who has 2 Sphnxy cats! Some of u might know what cat that is but for some who don't, these are the FURLESS cats a.k.a egyptian cats (I call it). Why didn't I think of suggesting this...

Hellooooooooooooooo wow its been for quite some time since the last time I posted something here!  Its been about a year and 3 months since I wrote the post "One fine man". Okay, lets cut the chase, I believe I came to an understanding of why I lose interest in writing all this while and why I decided to stop sharing looooong posts on my thoughts on my life. Basically - why I stopped pouring my hearts out here. Ever since Granpa left, I actually felt empty for quite some time. It's nothing major tho, I'm just trying to accept that he is not around anymore. I'd randomly cry when I'm studying and just mourn so much about him when I knew, I have to stop it. Alhamdulillah after few months, I did manage to collect myself and come to a point of acceptance of the whole situation. I still miss him tho, so so so much but like mak have always said : "When you go abroad, remember, life and death is real. You have to accept if things EVER (nauzubillah) happen...