Why I stopped writing

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Hellooooooooooooooo wow its been for quite some time since the last time I posted something here! 

Its been about a year and 3 months since I wrote the post "One fine man". Okay, lets cut the chase, I believe I came to an understanding of why I lose interest in writing all this while and why I decided to stop sharing looooong posts on my thoughts on my life. Basically - why I stopped pouring my hearts out here.

Ever since Granpa left, I actually felt empty for quite some time. It's nothing major tho, I'm just trying to accept that he is not around anymore. I'd randomly cry when I'm studying and just mourn so much about him when I knew, I have to stop it. Alhamdulillah after few months, I did manage to collect myself and come to a point of acceptance of the whole situation. I still miss him tho, so so so much but like mak have always said :
"When you go abroad, remember, life and death is real. You have to accept if things EVER (nauzubillah) happens to any of us. You have to be strong" 
I kept telling myself that life goes on. When Granpa was around, I would always update him with all the things that ive been up to in my life.  After he left, I just feel like keeping everything to myself and the close ones. He's gone for more than a year now and I have SO MUCH to tell him if he's around. But its okay, InsyaAllah if I meet him on the other side, I will tell him EVERY single bit of it. For now, I know he would be SO SO SO proud of me of where I'm now with my life. That me, myself is still trying to accept the reality that yes, I made it.

I'm graduating next month and how I wished he's around so that I could share that joy with. But hey, I still have my family - its not the end of the world. (I guess you get my point that he just means so much to me).

Although I don't really do hangouts with my friends and etc, I'm actually very personal with the people that I care about. I really treasure & value relationships with people who matter to me despite being anti-social (most) of the time lol.
Last Raya(Eid) 2016
My OFFICIAL LAST photo with Granpa <3

So there it is, that's why I stopped writing - not intentionally tho sorry. I will now slowly start writing again about the things that I've kept for the past 1 year+ and up until today.

Bye guys, Be kind.

Kind regards,
Liyana

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