How's LDR going?

2 months flew by and part of me still can’t believe I’m surviving this LDR. In the beginning, it was really hard as it was really lonely. I constantly cried the first few days when I’m in my room. The real feeling actually kicked in when I got home from the airport on 9 March last month. That moment, when I dropped my stuff, I felt it. IM ON MY OWN. For 2 years, I wasn’t technically alone – I was only away from families but I have friends and Azraei around so it wasn’t that bad being abroad. But that day, I felt it so deep. I could feel my heart shattered into pieces knowing that I sort of having to start living on my OWN in a foreign country that I love. I’m thankful that I really love New Zealand, the people and just where I am but adjusting to the new life is my new challenge.

OK enough crapping liyana - now let’s talk about how’s the LDR life…..

The first few days, I can’t really help but to cry at the smallest things. one, when I was about to cook for the first time since I came back, danggggg I cried so hard. Because for almost 2 years, Azraei is always there in the kitchen playing his phone OR helping me (mostly playing with his phone unless it’s his turn to cook lol). I felt so alone – cook alone & eat alone. It was hard.

I remember the first day I biked to work – guess what? I CRIED!!! (whats new lol). Because we used to cycle to class almost every day. That moment when I had to bike alone, huuuuuu that’s so sad. I was wishing so hard that he was here.

Weeks pass by…. I’m getting use it. I cried less ...almost to no more. SUPRISINGLY, being on LDR there’s a blessing in disguise. We fought LESS like SO MUCH less than before compared to when we were next to each other. Probably coz we don’t annoy each other as much? – busy with work.

BUT BUT one thing that surprised me is how forgiving we are when we are far apart. I realised that we’ve been really forgiving towards each other. For me, I felt that it was just eating my soul if we fought because we are far from each other anyway – it is so MUCH DAMAGING to the relationship.

Special delivery all the way from Malaysia as an apology lol

The picture above is basically one of the times when we find ways to apologize or just make up to the other.

Note that guys: I’m dating an auditor – he ain’t got any life other than his laptop during weekdays AND weekends (almost). I did my internship in audit so understood the life he’s living but glad that he’s liking the job role tho! It’s more painful if he’s not enjoying the role coz it didn’t suit me- that’s why I’m working in Tax now.

Anyway, accommodating to the relationship needs with different time zones  - has its pros and cons. We usually call each other when we are on our break/going home etc. We find ways to make time to talk to each other. It’s the smallest thing that counts right?

Out of all that, I can’t lie, I miss him so much every day. But this is our career and life choices for now – so we gotta make it work!

Hopefully, things will fall into place eventually for us and we can be together for good sometime soon in future (insyaAllah).

PS: He will be here in NZ soon as graduation is next week!!!! yayyy

Next post coming up: Worklife!

Bye guys, Be kind.

Regards,

Liyana