A message

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Everything happens for a reson, because He knows you are strong enough to face it.

Now I truly believe this statement (I it believe all along ,just that now I believe it more and deeper ) 
Im scared, im scared to face my fear. Im scared to make something huge although I really wanted to.
But now Allah have given me an oppurtunity, a chance to do so.
Deep inside of me, I still have the fear of "can I really do this?"

Getting a job/responsibillity is not an easy thing . I see it as a message from Allah because when I ask him for a light, He gave me in so many amazing ways that I couldnt ever imagine.
We tend to complain and brag about all the things that happen in our life. I admit ,I do to.
But I try to cut it off and reflect everything as a message .
I know although how far i distance myself from Him, He kept on giving me signs to come back.
O my Allah, I love You so much. Ive never felt so secured when I depend on someone until I decide to depend everything on You (which we should from the very beginning).

Back then, I really want to be succesful in life ( wealthy, and all those fancy stuff).but a few years back I realised, what am I really doing this for?
because everytime I work so hard ,I have a hole, an emptyness inside of me. I thought it was love, so I seek it from people but it dint really work. Until I decided to fill it with His love and my world changed .
With blessing from Him I realised that I was in a wrong direction.
These days, people look differently when we do something good. 
That has become a wall for us to change .
So , be true to yourself, and make a choice. Like my dad always say,
" ITS MY LIFEEEE..ITS NOW OR NEVERRR" *read it like you're singing the song weee.

Anyway, since now Ive given a job from Allah, a chance to make a change. I really have to face my fear especially when it comes to public speaking. (i can shivver and talk so fast that no one understands hoho).Thank you for a friend of mine which I dint thought she would suggest my name for this (seriously I dint expect it from her ). May Allah bless and ease your way till jannah :)

Sincerely,
Liyana :)


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