Double S

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Hello Dearie, guess what? Finals are over! Alhamdulillah I survived semester 1. and gosh it was tiring but it was worth it :) I learnt alot (not forgetting I failed the first term test of tax.) Oh well, gotta move forward! Moving on.... Just so you know, on the 30th of June I'm going to Dunedin for BERSATU. Its a sport event to gather Malaysians across NZ which includes Auckland, Wellington, Canterbury and Otago(I think I got em' all). So here's the thing, apperantly it's abit..well... QUITE expensive. It took away 2 months of my allowances. You have no idea how much I don't like asking money from my parents. I REALLY DON'T. But its a desperate call :( I feel such a troublesome. Anyway, since finals finished, I already said to myself that I'll try to get a fixed-term/one-off job within these 2 weeks before going off to Dunedin. You know, for some pocket money so that I don't need to ask for my parents. And so, I was having my eyes for these two jobs on sjs.com (its a place we go find jobs lah kan haha). 
Directly a day after my finals, I was working hard on my cv. I was aiming to get it finalised by today so that I could apply it by today-working day. (deadline was wednesday). So yeah. This morning at 10.20am I had a cv appointment with UC career to check my cv for the last time. And you know what...... when I opened back the website, the 2 jobs I was aiming for was no longer to be found :'(( You know how devastated I was? Last night was a hard night for me. after that issue ended, suddenly this one comes along. I was like "WHAT DID I DO WRONG?! WHY DIDNT I HAVE THE CHANCE????" I was disappointed, sad, mad and all the negativeness was all over me. MasyaAllah. Allah is really testing me these 2 days. Then, I went for a netball training for 2 hours. and Alhamdulillah, the negativeness just swept away from my heart. The training session was great! I finally get to feel the chemistry inthe group. Before I stepped into the court I say this to myself..
"Hey Liyana, stop. Maybe its not just for you. Be patient. Don't let your mood ruin others during the practice."
So yes, thats what excatly I did. I left my negativeness right before I enter the court. and SubhanaAllah there's this one energy that fills up my body. Despite that I slept straight away after my iftar..buncit ke nanti :/ ? who cares haha (maybe my mental is just too tired), now I'm a stronger Liyana than yesterday :D Although, I'm still looking forward for any vacancies available within these two weeks. but you know what? if there is, then there will be. If there're no jobs available, I'll stabilise myself as time goes by insyaAllah. 
I thank Allah for having my parents. For having the two humans that accept me as I am. although how much I messed up (such as buying a $130 of harness and not using it,tried to sell it but failed). They keep on saying, its okay. we have your back but you need to learn your lesson. 
Hence my dear friends... Please don't make mistakes like I do. Just learn from me. I pray that you won't face all of these troubles that I'm facing. May Allah ease you here and Akhirah. 
Oh and, "Double S" stands for DOUBLE STRESS. haha
Sincerely, Liyana.

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