Liyana Azizul

Something that I need to tell the world about you. Hi guys, so today I have a (quite long) story. It's about my late granpa, Samsudin Hamzah. A man with a pure and amazing heart. Here it goes... When I was only 2 weeks old, my mom sent me to my granpa's for awhile to babysit me as my mom had some work to do. Obviously I don't remember those days haha. But basically that's how/why my bond w him and granma is very close. There're so many things about him that the world around him is missing him. He was loud, cheerful, full w jokes and etc. He just know how to crack up everyone  during family gatherings and everywhere. I had so many memories w him. I still remember the first day I ate ikan belah belakang sumbat sambal. There's this one day I went into his kitchen and I saw him feasting himself w a plate that has big fish that smells so good. So I asked him, "granpa tgh makan apa"(what are you eating?" And he said "ikan dgn sambal. Meh ...

The reason why I'm going for this trip is because all my life I really wanted to travel solo. Luckily I'm in New Zealand which I could probably say one of the safest country in the world so yay!(I don't think I'm brave enough to travel alone in the other side of the world hm).  Moving on, this journey is about discovering myself and the beautiful world that Allah have created for us. I've never been to the North Island (lambat sikit haha). I believe most of my friends have been to both sides of the islands. Anyway,I'm so proud of myself because I could get myself a vacay fully with my own money that I got from working(not from MARA eh) . Duit lebih from MARA are dumped into the savings account(and yeah, I sometimes save too much. I have to learn pamper myself once in a while).  I'm also so grateful for this semester. I worked for 3 different casual jobs which makes me busy like MOST of the time. Somehow my studies are doing amazing when I'm busi...

Hello! I've always wanted to write about this but I never had the chance to/ or maybe I'm just denying to write about it. Today you'll know something new about me (maybe). I broke my heart a lot. I was vulnerable with my feelings because I wanted to feel needed. And I realised I was eating myself in and out. Anyway, my point is I've always wanted to rush to get married because I'm insecure. I didnt think it through. I just wanted to tie the knot A.S.A.P. However, last Thursday I received an email from EY(unknwon branch hehe) saying I passed the interview and they have accepted my intern application. yay! Alhamdulillah. Am so happy!!!  Later then something just got into me. I start to realise that I have so many things coming up in my future and I felt like I don't need to rush marriage. When the time is right, it will come. The opportunity to work with EY had opened my eyes to my career field. I started to realise more of my possible potentials.  When I...

Good morning people! I want to share a thing or two about regrets.  (do watch the video at the end of my post! it's worth it) So.....I had my first ever biggest regret during my primary school. I may be too young at that time but I learnt a huge lesson in life which is 'Do not hold back'. I have tried to impress everyone in everything I do at that time because I thought those words I get from people are my main strength. But then I realised, I was wrong.  I figured that all I have is myself. I have the power to make choices to do and not to do. So yeah, that time I didn't really go for my dreams because I didn't have any. My mission back then was for popularity, which was my biggest mistake. When I didn't manage to get straight A's for my national primary school exam, everything turned upside. I cried for weeks. I regretted the whole time and I hated myself for not having a dream.  But then I'm glad I went through all that because I real...

Omg, I'm so excited! I can't wait to share with you guys . They have just updated the SVA page and I finally got my face in it!!! You have no idea how happy I'am. I feel so proud of myself omg omg.  The truth is, I never set limits to my goals. Sometimes people think I'm being unrealistic or I'm just too optimistic. But those limitless that I have for my dreams are the reasons why I love what I do. Although sometimes I don't even have time to eat or sleep and could only cry over the pressure that I have, I kept myself going. Because I know in the end, I'm growing in so many aspects of myself. MasyaAllah. Alhamdulillah for all the opportunities I get for all the hard work that I put in. Goodluck in everything you're doing too, my dear friends. Bye guys. Be kind. Regards, Liyana

Hi! August is coming to an end soon and September is starting to show itself. Gosh time flies. Im going home in less than 3 months now! yayyyyy (I really want to eat eat eat and shop shop when I'm back coz everything is so expensive here). Tonight I want to share with you ,one of my monthly schedules :) It turns out that September is quite a busy month for me. I thought I had only 1 thing which is my Financial Accounting test. However, after I put everything into my calendar, this is what I get.... Just so you know, these are only events which EXCLUDES my classes. My classes starts on the 5th of September. Look at the things I have after that! So many :o omg Im so fascinated by all the green colours. Although, I know I will be super busy with Student Volunteer Army(SVA) stuff, rugby games(supervisor je bukan player haha) and projectssss, I know I will have fun. You know why? because these things help me to understand myself better. Some people may wonder like why...

Just to let you know, I'm coming home this November. The main reason I'm going home is because I want to do an internship. This is to help me get jobs easier in the future after I graduate. But apparently, I haven't received any respond from the company yet :(  I should not be sad but Im just am because my friends are already getting responses from the company in the KL branch but apparently it seems like the branch in penang is taking so long. I have applied for about 2 months now. Azraei is already getting accepted and finalizing his confirmation of application. And me... nothing :( this waiting is killing me.  Man I wonder why I'm the one being tested ya Allah. Dear Liyana, be patient just a bit more!  So today I've called the company in Malaysia both KL and Penang branch and the customer service was quite bad and disappointing. SubhanaAllah is this meant to be my test? Anyway, the person in penang asked me to call back because the person in charge i...

Hellooooo New semester has just begun!  Alhamdulillah I survived semester 1 :D The result was...........alhamdulillah. Better than I was expecting but yeah, I really need to buckle up these next few sems.  Anywho, now I'm like one of the old batches(sort of) in UC.  KYSB have just sent another batch for this July intake.  So I get a lot of questions and wonders of life over here as compared to in Malaysia.  When it comes to work, opportunities etc... I almost got the same respond which is  "Serious la? malasnyaaa...." or "Banyaknya benda nak buat... susah je..." For Allah's sake, can you guys stop whining? Its like the rule of life. If you want something, work for it then you'll get it. There's nothing free in life. Oh wait. Dua is free and its SUPER MAGICAL! but still, you need to put some effort to make it magical. So basically, nothing comes easy in life.  Truth to be told, struggling financially is not an easy thing. It's not...

Hello Dearie, guess what? Finals are over! Alhamdulillah I survived semester 1. and gosh it was tiring but it was worth it :) I learnt alot (not forgetting I failed the first term test of tax.) Oh well, gotta move forward! Moving on.... Just so you know, on the 30th of June I'm going to Dunedin for BERSATU. Its a sport event to gather Malaysians across NZ which includes Auckland, Wellington, Canterbury and Otago(I think I got em' all). So here's the thing, apperantly it's abit..well... QUITE expensive. It took away 2 months of my allowances. You have no idea how much I don't like asking money from my parents. I REALLY DON'T. But its a desperate call :( I feel such a troublesome. Anyway, since finals finished, I already said to myself that I'll try to get a fixed-term/one-off job within these 2 weeks before going off to Dunedin. You know, for some pocket money so that I don't need to ask for my parents. And so, I was having my eyes for these two jobs on ...

Dear friends, this video really did make cry..... just take 3 mins of your time to look at it :(( https://www.facebook.com/Channel4News/videos/10153805222871939/

2 days ago was National's Best Friends Day so I decided to 'gather' my friends yesterday morning just to show them how much they mean to me (wuish ayat haha) . Below is a picture I took from my instagram.  There are about 8 people in the picture. Some of them are in Malaysia, Australia and New Zealand. If you want me to tell you a full story about each and every of them, that would take forever so I will try to make it short.  Every person came into my life is so many different ways..... Like Natasya, we're childhood friends. We met in the year of 2006 and we basically continue our life in the same school and college (except for 2012-2013 bcs I went to mrsm). So, we've seen the goods and worse sides of each other. We had that *itch fight during primary school and the friendship just heals on its own and became an indestructible bond.  Farah or more known as Fee, we met during the spm days. We went to this tutoring class together (the class actually becam...

Hi there, Eid Mubarak my dear readers!! :) I can't believe I'm having my first ever Ramadhan overseas during winter <3 the weather is great and the best part is we only fast for about 10-11 hours. haha Just kidding. That's not the best part. but anyway, this time, I want to share something with you guys :)  Ever since I was growing up, I've always admired the experience my parents gained while living in the States. I've always wanted to see, touch and feel snow by myself. But all my mom said was,  "Belajar pandai-pandai, nanti pi tengok sendiri." You know, at first, I was kind of frustrated that my mom didn't want to take me there but then again, I'm thankful that my mom raised me up that way. You know why? because it taught me how to be grateful and never give up in everything I do. Below are the photos I took when I stopped by the road while cycling because I was just too excited and happy. Because I get to experience it on my own after...

Hello there, let me tell you a secret tonight. I actually have this 'entrepreneur' skill in me which I have no idea where it came from. Anyhow, my entrepreneur-ness is abit terburu-buru. I was rushing about making sort of a one-off business/plan and now I'm short of money. The worst feeling about having short of cash when you're overseas is, my parents are far away. I can't go home and get free food.  maaaan, this is hard. On top of that, I just received an email from the person that bought my harness which I sold last week. The girl said I advertised the size wrongly .----. (can things get worse now?omg I need your money to live) but then, after asking around and getting advice from my mom and my amazing friends, it's best for me to return the money back.  Well, returning the money, problem one solved! now, problem two reappear, I don't have much money to survive! I have no idea but why do I always have to learn everything the hard way... Astaghfirulla...

Finals are coming up in two weeks! Isn't funny how I tend to make a post when finals are coming up? (I think the anxiety makes me want to write lol). The feeling is the same all over again . Anyhow, for the last 2 days I felt pretty restless. I wanted to wake up late and just stare at the walls. At some point it made me wonder, wow I'm in NZ! I just felt like I was making fun of myself going away far from home. But here I am , I made it!  Truthfully, I'm proud of myself for making it this far. Alhamdulillah . Deeply, I know, without Him I wouldn't be here. I would've given up a long time ago. Instead, He helped me through.  I realised one thing. Ever since I was bashed as a 'hypocrite', I stopped talking about religious things. I stopped blogging (the secret is out why I stopped writing for awhile phew). I stopped giving people advice much about how to put your trust in Allah. I felt like I'm not that pious or sort of 'clean' they say. But...

I have a super power of forgetting. I tend to forget the things that hurt me within a short period of time. I don't know it's an advantage or what but though I forget,  I don't forget how it made me feel. I would forget the person and some kind of what the person actually did because it's a form of me 'letting go'. However, I just realised I'm building up a wall of fear. Fear of trusting and being vulnerable.  I share my stories but I don't share my time. I learn to value myself more. I learn to appreciate myself more because I know, at the end of the day, all I have is Allah and myself.  I can smile all day just to hide the story behind every second.  I remember how it made me feel.  Letting go is hard but this one person taught me how. It was kinda easy but there's a twist in the story . This is where I miss home. I miss Mak Abah. I miss the individuals that would tell myself that things are fine. You're just overreacting. At one p...